Ahhh...

 

Stats paper is over and although I didn't know a lot of things, I feel quite good now. Woke up to a nice cool morning today which made my mood all the more better. Knowing that God would take care of things just made me feel....good. Happy. I feel so freed today even though I still have 3 more papers to go.

 

Pasta later tonight to replace hall food.

Sausage from biz to fill my rumbling-throughout-stats-paper tummy.

Friends who care about me and feed me chocs.

Friends who offer food and 'good stuff'.

Friends who just listen to me rant.

Friends who tickle my frown away.

Friends who give me a hug to show they care.

Friends who send verses and songs as encouragement.

Friends who msn me.

 

 

 

Am feeling loved now. I'd better count my blessings.

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks to you, you and you. You know who you are.

The former.

 

 

I seriously didn't know what was going on when the examiner announced that we could start on our papers. My brain wasn't thinking at all. I had to read the questions so many times over I was wasting time. I didn't have enough time. I also didn't know how to do about half the paper. Oh boy, I feel quite horrible now. The fact that I mistook another paper for tomorrow's paper doesn't make it any better seeing that I haven't even touched the subject since school closed. Plus the fact that I come back late in time for...hall food which I don't feel like eating hence my blog entry now. Bleargh.

 

 

 

Today just isn't my day.

To think you know your stuff and have extra time to mooch around but suddenly find out there's stuff you didn't know in the exam.

 

 

Or

 

 

Not have enough time and rush through your studying and find out you would have known stuff you didn't know in the exam if you had more time.

 

 

 

 

I shall find out later.

...been one hour since I last saw them and I already missed them.

 

My family is the greatest. and I miss them so much. Sitting here in this empty room while people all around you are either rushing assignments or studying isn't exactly the most comforting situation. Sure I have friends around but nothing actually ever beats your family, you get what I mean? Sometimes you just need the ever-so-conforting presence of your mum to reassure yoy when things go wrong or the wisdom of your dad to make sure you don't make the wrong decisions. Or just the simple fact that you can tell them anything and everything under the sun. Just because they are your parents and they love you and you love them. Hmmm..this post might start to sound a little emo but that's how I feel right now.

 

Never saw blue like that- Shawn Colvin

 

Some sappy song that is so slow and sad that makes me want to cry. I miss them darn a lot. Miss tickling and disturbing my sister. Miss talking to my brother, listening to his latest nonsense. Miss telling them stuff that have happened to me in the past 3 or 4 months. Miss hearing the stories about what happened at home. Its just not enough. It never is. It is always when you're with them that you don't feel it but its when you leave that you suddenly realise that they're GONE. and you get sad. I don't like this feeling.

 

 

 

 

I want to go home

 

 

 

 

Somebody burn my exam papers please.

i is not wanting to study.

 

Got test on Wednesday which unfortunately happens to be tomorrow. Ga-blahhh. Apparently its going to be 'shiong' which is what the lecturer told us but 'shiong' is bad. Or not? heh. Oh well, just skipped stats lecture to read up on my stuff. Went through a lot of online sctuff eg animations and all to see how the processes work. Amazing how much better I can understand those funny stuff like DNA transcription and translation through the animations I found online. Speaking of online stuff, someone told me recently that the internet is being overused which got me thinking a bit.

 

People are relying more and more on the internet for various sctuff. Booking movie tickets, shopping, ordering food, studying etc. But its so convenient! Haihz. Sometimes there are stuff which you can get online for better erm...prices? or you can get like better sctuff like information (although the information might not be correct which is why we only go to those official websites and stuff) at a much faster speed. What so bad about it then? People just huddling around the computer for the entire day?

 

 

 

We should learn to switch off our computer once in awhile to pause and look at the things around us.

friendly! hahaha.

 

Yeanching and I spent the better half of the day making metal trees for huilian when we could have been studying or sleeping, enjoying the cool-ness of the day while it poured heavily outside. We did, however, have tonnes of fun. Seriously, I never imagined making trees to be so enjoyable...The nonsense that we came out was simply....nonsense. hur hur.

 

Sometimes I wonder about those who lock themselves in their room during pre-exam period and shut themselves away from everything and score really well in the finals. Is it really worth it? Is doing well in your studies really so important? I'm not saying that it's not important and we should not study at all but rather, is it worth it to go that far? For one thing, my attention span has never been able to be long enough for me to do such things. I'll be distracted and I'll need to have people around me...either talking or to disturb. heh. heh. Sometimes, I just feel that there are better things for me to do although I can't think of anything now.

 

 

 

 

I'm going to watch house.

and Ah Boo is flop. hur hur.

 

Flopped during my perf. today. hehe. Forgot about the last riff and when i remembered, my fingers landed on the wrong notes. Aikssss. Sooo malu-fying. But today's was nice cos there were many friendly faces after the thing ended. It's always nice to see people you love and care for waiting there to give you a hug and tell you that you did well and sounded okay even if you didn't. But that's what friends are for anyway. And I love them.

 

 

Exams are a pain in the neck. I dislike the feeling to trying to crammm everything in your brain hoping that nothing will leak out before the paper itself and stuff that you push in from other modules won't force the stuff you just learnt out of your brainnn. Plus the stuff we learn are sooo...irrelevant? For instance, in my Food Security and Safety module, I wish I could really learn about food food not like plants kind of food. I took this module hoping it was interesting (and also partly because it was one of the few modules that could fit in my timetable and the bid points were low enough for my mediocre supply of bid points. darn cors) and not to learn about photosynthesis and how they produce genetically modified plants or what colour meat are supposed to be and how the suppliers are cheating our money by putting some sort of chemical in the meat to make it look super nice and red and freshhh!!! Why not learn about chocolate and how it's an aphrodisiac? hahah. Or how it's rich in flavonoid. Then the lecturer could bring some chocolates to class for us to sample and see if we get high or aroused. hur hur. I think I am thinking too much about the wrong thing. hahahahha.

 

 

 

Food.

And no, its not your regular subway sandwich.

 

*grins* That was the name of our group when we did our accoustic set for Cambodia Heartbeat. Surprisingly, the audience gave some positive comments. Hmmm...Maybe its because they are our friends but I don't care. I played and I did it. It's over! hehe. Tonight, I'm going over there again to see the Rockers perform and also to play the bass for the last song...you know, where the organisers come on stage and everyone is buddy buddy and we end the night cheerfully. lalala.

 

Sitting on stage with the spotlight on you and 2 others playing the guitar right because your sound is amplified over the whole system and there is no electric guitarists to drown you out is certainly no mean feat. It was really a different experience playing yesterday and the other times I played in Rockers. Then again, when you're in a band, the audience pays more attention to the vocals and the electric guitarists? heheh. We bassists get to stand and hide in out little corner unless we choose to step out and make ourselves known with some slaps across the fretboard. Wheeee. I'm glad I did it and I was so touched by the balloon Eunice and Mun (well...talking helps? hahahha) put on my door for me when I came back. It was super sweet of them until all the ants in the world would want to get to them and I have diabetes. hur hur.

 

Okay, I think I took a long enough break. Back to studying for my CA next week. Blergh.

It seems that my blog is alive (more or less...hur hur).

 

Oh well, projects and assignments have been reduced to a bare minimal of 3. With IT and 2 Econs sctuff to hand in. heh. Feeling quite happy today for no absolute reason. Maybe its the nice songs coming out from my speakers...nice and jazzyyy to put me in nice nice mood. *grins* Have I said anything about the ugly-ness of MSN emoticons? Yahoo! ones are so much better. heh. Oh speaking of music....

 

I was asked to perform at the upcoming charity concert THIS THURSDAY alongside some others in a band. The thing is, I'm getting very upset over the entire thing. The flop-ness of it all. To date, we've only had ONE practice? When I perform, I want it to be good or else I'll just be toturing all those people sitting in the audience who actually PAID to see us perform. If its going to be bad, we may as well not play and spare them the headache and not waste their time nor MY TIME. Seriously, for the 2 scheduled practices so far, I've been waiting like a dungu head (It means some stupid thingy larrr) for the people to arrive. To make things worse, I was told that there was a practice yesterday at 630pm so at that time, I walked down to band room with guitar in tow. I waited for half an hour before sms-ing my friend. NO REPLY. So i sms-ed the other guy and he told me practice was the next day! Wuuuutttttt?!! They made me wait? I was super irritated larrr. What happened to professiolism? Aiks. Anyway, turned out my friend who informed me about the practice gave me the wrong day. BLergh. I really didn't feel like playing anymore at that point of time... SO BLERGHHHH. But yeah...me in happy mood today soooo...giving them one more chance. Except that for this time round, I shall not go down so early, I shall just take my time and not waste so much of my time waiting for people who never turn up on time.

 

On another note... I have a new guitar cable!!! SO happyyy. I was grinning at my cable....imagining the sounds it would transmit from my bass to the amp..Ahhhhhh... How I wish cables weren't so expensive or else I could have gotten a better one. Never mind, I bet this one is way better than the one I already have. hur hur. *grins*

 

Oh yarrr. I apologize for the lack of pictures. hahahha. Shall try to upload them someday.

 

 

tralalala