..in the joys of broadband!

 

 

AHhh...Ever since I have got broadband, I couldn't wait to get my hands on the gazillion files out there waiting to be downloaded. haha. *grins* But first, I needed some *ahem* knowledge on the whole downloading torrents thing so I recruited a few 'experts' in the area and *ta-dah!* I can download! haha. Since then, I have gotten episodes of Gilmore Girls and the recently released movie, Over the hedge which is quite cute. Currently, I'm itching to hear the beautiful melodies of Dave Koz which unfortunately takes super-duper long to download due to reasons I have yet to understand. The world of downloading is a complicated one my friend...hahaha. So yeah, if anyone is kind enough to explain to me the itsy-bitsy details of torrents-ing, I'll be willing to learn (as long as you don't catch me at a bad time hur hur).

 

 

There are some complaints though....hehe.(not everything is perfect ya? *grins*) Malaysian broadband can get cuckoo at some points where it disconnects itself and decides to take a long vacation especially at crucial moments like when my dad is standing behind me pestering me for some informatiom off the net and the stupid thing just won't move! *blehhh* However, I shall not complain and focus on the good points like the many movies I can watch or the many songs I can hear (all in due course...the darned thing always takes a few days to download a file..*blehh*) and enjoy myself while I can. Besides, I've been having ISDN for so long and always have had to control my usage due to its high cost.

 

 

OOoohhh ya! I forgot about games!! haha. I finally can play games online...Not that I haven't but I can play them without having to close the window everytime my dad walks past. hur hur. This is so much fun. I've been doing sooooo many sudoku puzzles online I'm starting to worry whether I'll turn into some nerd or something. hurhur.

 

 

 

Anyways, its late...and I should probably sleep because I have to work tomorrow.

I started my youth's Music Ministry Team (MMT) and I haven't been attending all the practices...okay fine, I haven't attended half of the 5 practices they have had so far. I mean, both times it wasn't exactly my fault either because I had something on which couldn't be canceled or something that I really have to go for. Anyway, I kinda asked this friend to help me out a bit at the beginning and my friend has been pretty committed. I mean, after all my big talk and making people committed and stuff, I don't exactly look very committed myself either when I step back and look at it. It's not like I don't realise what I'm doing but it's just that I can't help it. No matter what I say will always seem like a lame excuse and trust me, it seems that way to me too. However, I can't be sacrificing my social life and putting the MMT before my family just because I wanted to start something and to quote my friend, why should I bother when other people don't even bother?

 

To answer that, I bother because no one bothered in the first place. Then again, I'm not perfect! I'm still human! Granted, I had a lot of big ideas but it was all in my head! I mean, we all need ideas to start somewhere right? We don't suddenly start doing things out of nowhere? There would always be experiments with new things and hiccups along the way. I've accepted people for who they are but I am trying. Can't anyone see that? I myself feel bad without you telling and you have to rub it in and make it worse? C'mon! I was outstation for a family event! Not to mention 'someone' was late for the first meeting due to a family event. We all have our reasons and throughout time, I have learnt to accept people's reasons for nto doing what we expect them to do. I don't believe that is in our innate ability to dissapoint everyone around us but rather to carry out our responsibilities with the utmost effort. I'm just kinda sad and upset that people don't really trust me for what I'm doing. The trust between friends, knowing that your friend would not run away and leave you to do all the saigang is just not there. It saddens me to know that my friend thinks that way of me. I can't do much to change that. I'm not superman neither am I catwoman. I am not a fictional 'perfect' character but rather a person made in God's image, imperfect in every way such as a human being should be.

 

 

 

 

I wish you would understand.

hehe. Went to Sunway Lgoon today with a bunch of my good friends. *grins* I had fun...

 

Although the place isn't exactly new and there's construction nearby (they're building an extension for Sunway pyramid..blehh) and not to mention the oh-so-few slides, I had fun. A lot of fun to be exact. Even though we didn't do much but lie around in the sun talking and wasting our time away since we had already paid the entrance fee, I still had a lot of fun and it wasn't just the getting out of the house thing or finally I'm doing something thing but rather I enjoyed the company I had. I think that in whatever we do, our attitude counts a lot. For instance, I was so ready to get out there and have fun and fun I had whereas, if I wasn't so cock sure about having fun today, I'll have a lot to complain about the place and everything and in the end, I wouldn't have enjoyed myself as much as I did. I mean, the company you're with counts as well and if you were in the same company as I was, you'd be rockin' too! hee *beams* THanks you guys for making my day!! *hugs*

 

On another note, this is a warning to those out there that are thinking of going to Sunway Lagoon to play in the water park: IT is NOT clean!!!! hahaa. Mun found a worm and we think we saw a tadpole in the wave pool. Grooosssss. The second it registered in our minds that there was a worm in the pool, we rushed out of the pool instantly...hahah.a That was quite funny. All in all, it was a good day and now....I am ready to go to bed.

 

 

 

After I download dh. hehe. *grins*

 

 

p/s Did I mention I finally have streamyx?

 

pp/s Did I mention as well that I can access internet from my computer that is located in my room because the whole house in within the wireless network range?

 

ppp/s I am happy. (In case you haven't noticed. haha *grins*)

I lost my wallet today. At least I only found out today *smacks self on forehead* How could I lose it? The problem is I can't remember when was the last time I saw it and therefore have no idea where it went to. I've had that wallet for years and I've gotten quite attached to it throughout that period of time it was in my care. It has that classic black look which I have managed to mantain since I bought it. I still haven't made my police report and still haven't done much except cancel my atm card.

 

Somehow there is no wave of panic (other than that little bit of adrenaline rush in the morning) and I feel relativaly calm compared to when I thought I lost my wallet in Singapore that time. I don't know why its so different. I mean, this time, I probably would have lost my wallet for real and at that time I still managed to get it back but why the difference in feelings? I am weird. Hmmmm...

 

I guess its because I'm at home and I feel secure here. My parents are around to look out for me and I can rely on them to give me support whereas back there, I was kinda on my own. Sigh. So similar and yet....

 

 

 

Anyway, I gotta do a search in my dad's car now.

*jeng jeng jeng*

 

 

*drum rolls*

 

 

NUS. haha. I just clicked not too long ago and accepted them. Oh well, I hope I don't get into those 'what-if' streaks and start doubting my decision which might lead to me withdrawing my application and pleading NTU to let me in. hahaha. That would SO not happen. So yeah, if anyone of your readers bump into me, please la, don't ask me why I chose them and those kind of stuff the 'aunties' always ask since they do not really posses the technological capability to log on to the internet, search for my blog and read this entry. I will be (and already have been!!!!) answering a lot of faq to the computer illiterate so you guys please be considerate to my nerves and yeah...pandai pandai la. hehe. (Note: To those who don't understand the last two words, grab a Malay-English dicky and start flipping)

 

And yeah, this is going to be another short post because I am still waiting for that life-changing revelation from above which I can share with everyone here in a VERY LONG post. haha. *grins*

Teeheehee *chuckles*

 

I was sharpening pencils with the office kind of sharpener with Andy today. You know, those sharpeners where you stick the pencil in some hole in some box like thingy and you start turning the handle at the other side so that the pencil gets sharpened? hehe. Those kind. Well, some other people came along and decided to join us in our little pencil sharpening party. hehe. *grins* Doesn't sound very funny to you right? You're probably wondering by now why in the world am I so amused by this whole pencil sharpening business...Well...I found out something interesting today...*jeng jeng jeng* This 15 year old youth doesn't know how to work a pencil sharpener!!!!!!!!

 

hahahaha....Okay, maybe I'm being evil and stuff but I just found it so funny I couldn't help laughing. I mean, seriously, 15 years of your life and you've never worked a pencil sharpener like this before? *smacks self on forehead* Aiyooo. Anyway, the amusing thing was when no one offered to taech him how to work the thing (oh, we did it on purpose so it'll add more to the amusement level..hehe) and he was there cracking his brains trying to figure out how this box with a handle and a hole can sharpen a pencil. hehe. Boy was it hilarious.

 

As you can see, my oh-so-mundane days are such that even pencil sharpening can brighten it greatly to the extent I would type it down here. *bleah* Hmmm..maybe I should start doing more interesting stuff and start getting wonderful, interesting revelations while meditating which of course would never happen like how you won't find me walking on the wings of an airplane while its airborne. hehe.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I think its funny.

Okay...*drum roll*

 

I got into NUS business administration course. Was quite happy at first and then I got kinda confused on which course I should choose. You know, the professional cert vs the not so professional cert? teehee. *grins* Anyway, I have one whole month to decide and yeah, I shall just take my time...

 

Meanwhile, I kinda lost the job I never had. In other words, I couldn't start work till next week and apparently my boss couldn't wait that long and got someone else who could start immediately instead which is good since I just recieved a plastic bag full of 8mm tapes to convert and so financially, quite settled. haha. *grins* So as the Malaysian badminton team loses to Denmark in the Thomas Cup semi-finals, I shall just spare myself some of the 'kan-cheong-ness' and go back to watching tv (my currently favourite activity) later when we actually have lost. hahha. I am so pessimistic. OKay, in the case we DO win, kudos then to that unheard of guy, Kuan Beng Hong or something like that for winning the game for us. wheeee~ (sounds so fake but then again...hehe)

One of the reasons I wanted to get my license so badly is so that I can serve God in more ways and so that I can be a blessing to others around me in many other ways. hehe *grins* Well, today I got my chance. My friend called me this morning when I was still in bed asking me to send her to college as her car got broken into and there was glass everywhere. I complied being the nice girl that I am (Yes, yes I know everyone would be rolling their eyes by now....but I'm just kidding la hehe) I jammed all the way to her place and took her to college. *grins*

 

I just kinda feel happy when I get to help people out and along the way, she told me something I'm not really accustomed to hearing. hehe. *drum roll* She told me I was weird. haha. *grins* I asked her in what way and she said 'just weird la!'...Okay....I'm not really used to be on the 'weird' side. haha. Usually I'm the one dishing out the 'you're so weird' comments. hehe. Oh well, there's always a first time....

 

 

 

Woot~

 

 

 

 

I'm weird.

Darn.

 

 

 

I can still taste the durian I had after dinner on my breath everytime I burp.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Disgusting.

 

 

I just reached home after a VERY long journey from the small little insignificant (okayyy...just joking..hehe) island of Singapore. For those who wonder why we suddenly made a trip to Singapore (I seriously should have a FAQ section...hahahah), my grandmother wanted to go to Singapore to shop or do whatever. She just loves Singapore and NO she does not need to wait for sales. It must be that Singaporean blood in her. hehe. *grins* Everything about Singapore pleases her and when she is pleased, the people around her are automatically pleased too...keke. To further this FAQ session, my went down during the labour day weekend because my dad was driving down and he didn't want to take leave specially for this trip so yeah, explained. Anything more? haha. Should be quite sufficient for the kay-pohs out there. haha. *smirks*

 

 

Anyway, trip down was nice as I got to meet up with some people like my classmates and stuff but the journey back was like super tiring. We stopped by Malacca for lunch and boy, what a lunch that was!!!!! haha. We had a lot of good stuff set before us...muaaahahhahaha....After the wonderful lunch we crawled back home. hahaha. Got caught in a massive jam near Seremban and trust me, it wasn't a pleasant journey. As my grendmother gets older and older, she starts to forget things. She also get disoreintated easily and when she's pissed off (usually for no apparent reason) everyone gets it. It's kinda sad as you see people detiorate because soemtimes you wonder whether that is going to happen to you in the future.

 

As I compare my grandmother to another oldie I know, I kinda feel sad for both of them in different ways. One is doted on my her many children and another is left to her own care. However, one suffers from rheumatoid arthritis and the other seems perfectly capable of walking everywhere including driving. One is insecure about how others feel about her and the other is full of bitterness towards the world. I don't exactly want to end up like that. I hope that when I'm old, there will be people around me to care for me. Not just to satusfy their conscience when I'm dead but because they really want to and because they love me. That would be just ideal but then again, our dreams don't exactly always come true do they? I think the situation we will end up in when we're old depends a lot on how we maintain our relationships with people right now. If we harbour bitterness towards people, we drive them away from us and eventually we would end up alone in the world with no one to care for us. We would be lonely and sad and....yeah, you can just imagine how depressing that situation can get.

 

 

I don't want to be left alone to die.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Meanwhile, photos!