I parallel parked today! for the first time! haha. *grins* In Bangsar too with a string of cars behind me. hehe. So happy. Such cheap thrills I get from driving. hurhur. Simple joys......

 

 

Ahhhh...

 

I attended my cousin's wedding yesterday and it was indeed a wonderful event. Emo and all with people hugging, laughing and crying all at the same time. I too, experienced a mix of emotions which led me to question my growing up. As we grow older, we start to appreciate/connect with many more happenings/events in our life. Weddings can create in us, many conflicting emotions be it joy or sadness... Anyway, despite the 'garden wedding' which was turned into a 'ballroom wedding' due to mother nature's doing, the wedding was sweet and nice. Not perfect but nice. Certainly memorable. Makes me wonder when my Mr Right will come along and sweep me off my feet. If only that could happen ya? heh.

 

 

Anyways, I'll be leaving for Singapore on Saturday already. Shall be moving into hall, meeting new friends, joining more activities, busying myself with school work and of course not to forget, enjoying myself. heh. *grins*

 

 

 

 

Now lets hope that everything can fit into the car. hur hur.

Ever encountered a situation where you've wanted to hear this person's voice so much that you try and try to call the person and when you finally do get through, you have nothing to say?

 

Its weird.

 

 

I was at a lost for words. I didn't know what to say. I called with the confidence that a conversation would naturally start on its own as it always does but it failed this time. Why this time? When time is in excess and I need it so but yet there are so many things to tell when I don't have the time.

 

 

MURPHY"S LAW

 

Never fails to kick into action when you don't need it the most.

OKay, I have been having this irritating itch in my ears since last year and recently it just got even more irritating than usual. So I went to see the doc, came back with a diagnosis of inflammed ears and meds. Then, it started to get painful so yesterday I paid a visit to the ENT (Ear nose throat doc) and got 8 pokes in my arm.

 

The doc was kinda like dr house. Especially the part where he wanted to test what kind of allergy I had. He kinda 'introduced' (more like poked into me) different allergens (at least I think its the correct term) and checked which one swelled. Needless to say, my arm felt as if there was a lot of activity going on there. It was super itchy and it was all to give my mom a peace of mind. She was so relieved she was laughing most of the session. hehe. *grins*

 

Anyway, I, too am relieved that I don't have somesort of a fatal disease where I would call all my loved ones and friends to my deathbed so I can say goodbye. hehehee. *grins shyly* Sometimes I just get very morbid thoughts...hee.

 

 

So here are the pics of my arms with the holes. hehe.

In reference to my last post (and due to some people asking me questions)....

 

 

I'm fine la. Was just being a little emo due to hormones...(girls have their emo times you know? heh) So yeah, thanks to those who cared and offered to listen to me. I really appreciate it. Sometimes, it takes times like these to know who really cares for you and who doesn't. Of course not everyone counts since not everyone reads this blog anyway. hehe.

 

 

 

Thanks. You know who you are.

 

 

 

You disappeared. I tried to forget you. Tried to push you out of my thoughts. Tried to go on with what I had to do. I had nothing much to be done and the idleness led me to thoughts of you but yet again I pushed it out because it hurts less that way. I knew it was coming. I expected it and yet the feeling still comes all the same.

 

 

I managed to push you out of my mind.

 

 

 

Then you called.

 

Timing was such that it is never on our side. It is always against us. I was sore. I was upset and I was a little hurt. Thoughts swarmed into my mind. I could not stop it. I was a strong flow. It was painful.

 

 

 

I called back.

 

 

 

Twice.

 

 

 

 

Both hurt equally bad. I did not like how it ended but now I'm trying to push you out again. Until the time is right.

 

 

 

 

Because it hurts less.

 

 

 

 

Or at least I like to think it that way.

I am bummed..

 

...by your absence

 

...by the way things are

 

...by the timing

 

...by unnecessary thoughts

 

...by an inflammed ear

 

...by the thought of leaving my family soon

 

...by not achieving what I wanted to

 

 

I'm leaving for Singapore in a month and I can't exactly say I'm totally excited to start uni life anytime soon. In fact I'm quite reluctant. I've always had this part of me that never wants to grow up. Kinda like a Peter Pan kind of thing. To be able to live like a kid without any worries, having that childlike trust that everything needed would be provided  by our parents o sorme higher authority out there, to be able to run around freely exhibiting the energy and the enthusiasm of a child. Ahhh, how nice that sounds. hee. *grins* So yeah, going to uni is another 'step' and another sign that I'm growing up. Growing up means more responsibilities and more decisions to make. More things to think about and more problems. Growing up also means more freedom and exploration. Exploring into the things we have never dared or been allowed to venture before.

 

I feel so anti-social. Feeling kinda scared to be meeting new people. People in hall. People in class. People everywhere! I guess I kinda like living in my comfort zone and I can be a very routine kind of person sometimes although parts of me display bits of sponteneity sometimes. Maybe this is the fear of being rejected. The fear of being judged. Hmmmm....Or rather I'm thinking too much into things. I shall go and bathe....Feeling rather hot these days...Its the weather...blergh