It has been long and somehow I never had the motivation to blog frequently like how Xian used to do. Nothing attracted me towards blogging. But I came across this one entry someone wrote that sometimes, we blog for ourselves. Few years down the road we'll look back and read our old memories, the little snippets of our life story. Might bring back emotions we've forgotten or remind us of past events we might have stored away somewhere in that little corner of our brain. Personally, I used to blog because I was bored and it provided me with an outlet or rather, just something to do.

 

However, now that my life has been filled with school work and hall stuff, blogging has kinda lost its attraction already. One thing just pops up after another. FWOC, IBG, DND, TGIO, Comm applications, mid terms...etc. the list could go on forever. And yet, I'm still sitting here typing away wondering if anyone would actually read this little entry.

 

There could only be one reason.

 

 

 

 

 

Yes,

 

 

I'm bored.

 

 

 

 

HAHA. Somehow, homework and everything else has lost its appeal. I don't feel like doing anything and yet when I'm not doing anything, I'm bored. Funny eh?

 

 

 

I need to figure myself out. 

hehe. It has been long since I wrot emy last entry. Many many things have happened since my last post. I have gone home another time for Christmas and now school has started. My busy life is starting again. How I yearn for the holidays! Or rather till production is over and I can at least have some breathing space. hehe. Badminton and swim are done and now I'm waiting for this weekend for softball to be over too. The gig at St James Powerhouse is also over and done with. hehe. COolness. Had my first taste of performing in a club. Unfortunately, the crowd was erm, boring? They just sat there and stared. Boooo. We did, however, bring our own supporters and yay! we hada bit of noise from the ever so faithfully noisy bunch of rockers + steph. Thanks.

 

Next up is Chinese New Year!!! I can't wait for the family to drive down and I can relax for the entire week. heheh. *grins* Feeling ever so tired and yet having ever so much fun. Only God can bring me through this and He has been so faithful in placing stuff exactly where they should be and giving me the energy to last through out the busy weeks. Seriously, I don't know what I can do without Him.

 

 

 

 

 

thanks.

My body is aching all over.

 

 

I have training every single day of the week. (erm, weekdays only...hehe :))Sho tired! However, I'm starting to enjoy swim trainings even though it can get quite tiring. But the fact that I'm in the water somehow just relaxes me and makes me feel refreshed and ready to go for another lap. I love playing in the water. I'm not quite a water baby as certain people who I shall not mention but I love being in the water all the same. The water cools you down and makes you feel good, makes you feel a little like the kid you used to be, free from all worries and stuff. Of course there's the erm, aches and pains when you stop but it's worth it. hehe. :)

 

Hall is getting a little noisier with some of my neighbours coming back.(I have moved to 5th floor for the holidays by the way)My floor, however, seems so deserted and lonely. The corridor is so dark and quiet that I'm thankful I have moved up where there's more hustle and bustle going on. I guess I'm a person who needs to have people around. :)

 

 

Anyways, shall rest my tired body now and skip the softball friendly match later. hurr.r

Ahhh...it feels good to be home, good to sleep in your own bed once again. How I have missed home.

 

 

And how I miss driving. hurrr.

 

Now I'm just waiting for my parents to return from the airport and it'll make my happy day complete. Breakfast in PJ with a good friend, a visit to the Grandmother which included free lunch and foot reflextology and a good dinner cum walking around the mall session with my brother at night. I feel so happy today. hee. Plus I found new slippers to replace my slippery (literally, the soles are wearing out...haha) old ones. Kinda the same type but then again (according to SOME) I am BORING so yarrr... (It's not my fault they don't have my size! bleh). hahha.

 

 

 

 

I can't wait.

 

 

 

 

 

I love home.

is nearing.

 

Tomorrow is my last paper of the semester and I am finally going home! yay. I can't wait. *beams* Shall be travelling back home with my wonderful cousin for company. Say goodbye to long lonely bus rides! Wheee. hehe.

 

Anyways, prior to this paper, I feel awfully relaxed. The simple fact that it is an open-book exam makes me feel as though my exams are over. However, they are, unfortunately not for another ermm, 20 hours I think. I'm feeling happy even though one of my close friends have left hall already and hall is starting to get quieter and quieter with everyone finishing their exams and packing up to go home. I too, shall join the going home gang soon!!! Yay. But not before I shift ALL my stuff to Mun's room which is...erm...something I've been trying to avoid (My stuff is not exactly very little k? Its just that I pack them neatly in cupboards and shelves. hurrr).

 

Short while more to freedom...

 

 

 

Dried tomatoes anyone?

Ahhh...

 

Stats paper is over and although I didn't know a lot of things, I feel quite good now. Woke up to a nice cool morning today which made my mood all the more better. Knowing that God would take care of things just made me feel....good. Happy. I feel so freed today even though I still have 3 more papers to go.

 

Pasta later tonight to replace hall food.

Sausage from biz to fill my rumbling-throughout-stats-paper tummy.

Friends who care about me and feed me chocs.

Friends who offer food and 'good stuff'.

Friends who just listen to me rant.

Friends who tickle my frown away.

Friends who give me a hug to show they care.

Friends who send verses and songs as encouragement.

Friends who msn me.

 

 

 

Am feeling loved now. I'd better count my blessings.

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks to you, you and you. You know who you are.

The former.

 

 

I seriously didn't know what was going on when the examiner announced that we could start on our papers. My brain wasn't thinking at all. I had to read the questions so many times over I was wasting time. I didn't have enough time. I also didn't know how to do about half the paper. Oh boy, I feel quite horrible now. The fact that I mistook another paper for tomorrow's paper doesn't make it any better seeing that I haven't even touched the subject since school closed. Plus the fact that I come back late in time for...hall food which I don't feel like eating hence my blog entry now. Bleargh.

 

 

 

Today just isn't my day.

To think you know your stuff and have extra time to mooch around but suddenly find out there's stuff you didn't know in the exam.

 

 

Or

 

 

Not have enough time and rush through your studying and find out you would have known stuff you didn't know in the exam if you had more time.

 

 

 

 

I shall find out later.

...been one hour since I last saw them and I already missed them.

 

My family is the greatest. and I miss them so much. Sitting here in this empty room while people all around you are either rushing assignments or studying isn't exactly the most comforting situation. Sure I have friends around but nothing actually ever beats your family, you get what I mean? Sometimes you just need the ever-so-conforting presence of your mum to reassure yoy when things go wrong or the wisdom of your dad to make sure you don't make the wrong decisions. Or just the simple fact that you can tell them anything and everything under the sun. Just because they are your parents and they love you and you love them. Hmmm..this post might start to sound a little emo but that's how I feel right now.

 

Never saw blue like that- Shawn Colvin

 

Some sappy song that is so slow and sad that makes me want to cry. I miss them darn a lot. Miss tickling and disturbing my sister. Miss talking to my brother, listening to his latest nonsense. Miss telling them stuff that have happened to me in the past 3 or 4 months. Miss hearing the stories about what happened at home. Its just not enough. It never is. It is always when you're with them that you don't feel it but its when you leave that you suddenly realise that they're GONE. and you get sad. I don't like this feeling.

 

 

 

 

I want to go home

 

 

 

 

Somebody burn my exam papers please.

i is not wanting to study.

 

Got test on Wednesday which unfortunately happens to be tomorrow. Ga-blahhh. Apparently its going to be 'shiong' which is what the lecturer told us but 'shiong' is bad. Or not? heh. Oh well, just skipped stats lecture to read up on my stuff. Went through a lot of online sctuff eg animations and all to see how the processes work. Amazing how much better I can understand those funny stuff like DNA transcription and translation through the animations I found online. Speaking of online stuff, someone told me recently that the internet is being overused which got me thinking a bit.

 

People are relying more and more on the internet for various sctuff. Booking movie tickets, shopping, ordering food, studying etc. But its so convenient! Haihz. Sometimes there are stuff which you can get online for better erm...prices? or you can get like better sctuff like information (although the information might not be correct which is why we only go to those official websites and stuff) at a much faster speed. What so bad about it then? People just huddling around the computer for the entire day?

 

 

 

We should learn to switch off our computer once in awhile to pause and look at the things around us.

friendly! hahaha.

 

Yeanching and I spent the better half of the day making metal trees for huilian when we could have been studying or sleeping, enjoying the cool-ness of the day while it poured heavily outside. We did, however, have tonnes of fun. Seriously, I never imagined making trees to be so enjoyable...The nonsense that we came out was simply....nonsense. hur hur.

 

Sometimes I wonder about those who lock themselves in their room during pre-exam period and shut themselves away from everything and score really well in the finals. Is it really worth it? Is doing well in your studies really so important? I'm not saying that it's not important and we should not study at all but rather, is it worth it to go that far? For one thing, my attention span has never been able to be long enough for me to do such things. I'll be distracted and I'll need to have people around me...either talking or to disturb. heh. heh. Sometimes, I just feel that there are better things for me to do although I can't think of anything now.

 

 

 

 

I'm going to watch house.

and Ah Boo is flop. hur hur.

 

Flopped during my perf. today. hehe. Forgot about the last riff and when i remembered, my fingers landed on the wrong notes. Aikssss. Sooo malu-fying. But today's was nice cos there were many friendly faces after the thing ended. It's always nice to see people you love and care for waiting there to give you a hug and tell you that you did well and sounded okay even if you didn't. But that's what friends are for anyway. And I love them.

 

 

Exams are a pain in the neck. I dislike the feeling to trying to crammm everything in your brain hoping that nothing will leak out before the paper itself and stuff that you push in from other modules won't force the stuff you just learnt out of your brainnn. Plus the stuff we learn are sooo...irrelevant? For instance, in my Food Security and Safety module, I wish I could really learn about food food not like plants kind of food. I took this module hoping it was interesting (and also partly because it was one of the few modules that could fit in my timetable and the bid points were low enough for my mediocre supply of bid points. darn cors) and not to learn about photosynthesis and how they produce genetically modified plants or what colour meat are supposed to be and how the suppliers are cheating our money by putting some sort of chemical in the meat to make it look super nice and red and freshhh!!! Why not learn about chocolate and how it's an aphrodisiac? hahah. Or how it's rich in flavonoid. Then the lecturer could bring some chocolates to class for us to sample and see if we get high or aroused. hur hur. I think I am thinking too much about the wrong thing. hahahahha.

 

 

 

Food.

And no, its not your regular subway sandwich.

 

*grins* That was the name of our group when we did our accoustic set for Cambodia Heartbeat. Surprisingly, the audience gave some positive comments. Hmmm...Maybe its because they are our friends but I don't care. I played and I did it. It's over! hehe. Tonight, I'm going over there again to see the Rockers perform and also to play the bass for the last song...you know, where the organisers come on stage and everyone is buddy buddy and we end the night cheerfully. lalala.

 

Sitting on stage with the spotlight on you and 2 others playing the guitar right because your sound is amplified over the whole system and there is no electric guitarists to drown you out is certainly no mean feat. It was really a different experience playing yesterday and the other times I played in Rockers. Then again, when you're in a band, the audience pays more attention to the vocals and the electric guitarists? heheh. We bassists get to stand and hide in out little corner unless we choose to step out and make ourselves known with some slaps across the fretboard. Wheeee. I'm glad I did it and I was so touched by the balloon Eunice and Mun (well...talking helps? hahahha) put on my door for me when I came back. It was super sweet of them until all the ants in the world would want to get to them and I have diabetes. hur hur.

 

Okay, I think I took a long enough break. Back to studying for my CA next week. Blergh.

It seems that my blog is alive (more or less...hur hur).

 

Oh well, projects and assignments have been reduced to a bare minimal of 3. With IT and 2 Econs sctuff to hand in. heh. Feeling quite happy today for no absolute reason. Maybe its the nice songs coming out from my speakers...nice and jazzyyy to put me in nice nice mood. *grins* Have I said anything about the ugly-ness of MSN emoticons? Yahoo! ones are so much better. heh. Oh speaking of music....

 

I was asked to perform at the upcoming charity concert THIS THURSDAY alongside some others in a band. The thing is, I'm getting very upset over the entire thing. The flop-ness of it all. To date, we've only had ONE practice? When I perform, I want it to be good or else I'll just be toturing all those people sitting in the audience who actually PAID to see us perform. If its going to be bad, we may as well not play and spare them the headache and not waste their time nor MY TIME. Seriously, for the 2 scheduled practices so far, I've been waiting like a dungu head (It means some stupid thingy larrr) for the people to arrive. To make things worse, I was told that there was a practice yesterday at 630pm so at that time, I walked down to band room with guitar in tow. I waited for half an hour before sms-ing my friend. NO REPLY. So i sms-ed the other guy and he told me practice was the next day! Wuuuutttttt?!! They made me wait? I was super irritated larrr. What happened to professiolism? Aiks. Anyway, turned out my friend who informed me about the practice gave me the wrong day. BLergh. I really didn't feel like playing anymore at that point of time... SO BLERGHHHH. But yeah...me in happy mood today soooo...giving them one more chance. Except that for this time round, I shall not go down so early, I shall just take my time and not waste so much of my time waiting for people who never turn up on time.

 

On another note... I have a new guitar cable!!! SO happyyy. I was grinning at my cable....imagining the sounds it would transmit from my bass to the amp..Ahhhhhh... How I wish cables weren't so expensive or else I could have gotten a better one. Never mind, I bet this one is way better than the one I already have. hur hur. *grins*

 

Oh yarrr. I apologize for the lack of pictures. hahahha. Shall try to upload them someday.

 

 

tralalala

so early.

 

I forgot CH asked me to play badminton tonight. After a terribly dull day, badminton would have cheered me up but noooo, I just had to bathe and it was when I was towelling myself dry that the realisation of what I had done hit me. Urgh. It was painful. Knowing that I could have been in the MPSH sweating it out, having fun playing the game I love so much instead of lying on my bed and thinking of what mistakes I have made in the past (Oh, its just some stupid thing I have to write for one of my modules. Serious.) Cooking was the main highlight of my day and other than that, my day had gone to a terrible waste. I had prepared myself for a really fun day, a day to do something and it was the total opposite. Maybe it's the expectation of it. If I had expected to slack all day and do nothing, my day probably would have been much better. Instead, I sit here, moaning the dullness of my unproductive and unfruitful day on my visitor-less blog which I don't think anyone knows it exists anymore.

 

 

Expectations suck.

 

 

It sucks when you expect stuff.

It sucks too when people expect stuff.

 

 

Conclusion: Have no expectations. :)

Finally! 2 down and 5 more to go!!!!!! Whooopeeedooo!!!

 

The exhilaration.

 

I just came back from my MNO presentation and I feel so liberated. For the moment at least. Tomorrow we'll be handing in our Homework Assignment 2 and that's one more done!! YAY!!! The best part was, I think that the class actually enjoyed our little movie clip. hee. *grins* We watched a total of 4 videos today including my group's and it was quite fun. I particularly liked the movie-lookalike one. It was really cool and quite well edited. It was quite nerve wrecking to be sitting at the computer wondering if people will enjoy your hard work but it paid off in the end when I saw people laughing at the crazyyyyy characters my team mates are. They're a crazy bunch and I like working with them. Ohhh yarrr.. there was this part that was quite panicky. The file which I exported couldn't run on the school's lousy computer!!! But luckily I had backup and I was sooo grateful that my backup worked. Praise God for that. My heart almost dropped out when Windows Media Player showed me the error message. AIksss. hahaha. But yeah, panic over and it went well...

 

Thus my joy.

 

 

 

 

Now I can play badminton and jam in peace.

Woooo... Yet another week has passed. During dinner I has this wish (kinda) that we had one week of school and one week break following that. That way, our work and  holiday is 50:50 unlike the current 5:2 with 5 going to school...blergh. Don't you think my idea is sooooo good? hahahha. Sekali people die of boredom during that one week or tutors start dumping us super-duper a lottt of work considering we have a week to finish it. Hmmm...maybe my idea wasn't so novel after all. hur hur.

 

On something totally not related, I realise that Yahoo! has cuter emoticons than msn. Msn's emoticons are sooo ugly. The smileys look so....erm...plasticky as compared to Yahoo!'s happy and cute emoticons. I, for one, especially like the cute happy face with a big grin showing all the teeth. hee. Reminds me of Mun somehow....*winkwink*

 

Time passes soooo fast..(I seem to be saying this a lot lately but I can't help it!) and deadlines are getting nearer and nearer..Let's see...

 

BSP1005 Homework Assignment 2

BSP1005 Tutorial Discussion

BSP1005 Case study 6

MNO1001 Video and resource guide submission

GEK1502 Presentation on preservatives (I have yet to find out what they really do...hurhur)

IT1801    Project Submission

ST1131A Project Submission

 

That's about it I guess. A lot yar? I haven't even started on some yet. blehhhh (Imagine happy face with tongue sticking out. hee)

On a lighter note, I get free ice cream!!! YaaayyyY!!! Newzealand natural somemoreeee....yippeee. Hurray for Chazz a.k.a. swim cap! I also have the voucher for a free regular ice cream or smoothieeee.. I feel soooo happyyy thinking about the future-ice cream-sliding-down-my-throat (since its supposedly veryyy good, it should slide...hahha) and feeling super contented. Ahhhh...Simple joys of life. *grins*

 

About hall...

 

So far I've got into 3 sports (people tell me I'm mad..heh) namely badminton, swimming and table tennis and waiting for one more to accept me. Actually I was only planning to join 2, at most 3 but the table tennis one was...erm...out of pure fun? I was already there for the badminton trials and since I had nothing to do I decided to go and play table tennis thus exposing my horrible skills with the bat and the little orange ball. hur hur. Anyways, Yijia asked us to put our name down so we did and ta-da! I have one extra meeting to attend tomorrow.

 

*pauses to clean ears*

 

Back! SO yeah...I'm kinda looking forward to improving my skills at these sports so watch out dad when I come back in dec!!! hehe

 

Speaking of accelerated time, I realise some people in hall get attached pretty quickly. Two months? One month? Doesn't it take longer than that to know the person better? My friend told me that in hall, things are accelerated because you see each other every day...day and night so it's different. How different can it get? It takes time for a person to be comfortable enough with another before some true colours come out. When a guy is going after some girl, OBVIOUSLY he'll be super nice and all right? Plus, looking at the amount of time they spend together in each other's rooms with the door closed, they may as well say they're living together. I'm not condemning anyone nor critisicing anyone but I just think it's a little too fast. What happened to good ol' group dating? Oh well...

 

Made a trip to vivocity yesterday with Munyin and Huilian. Good company=nice time regardless of how-ugly-the-design-is, look-at-that-ugly-green-spirally-thing and can-you-see-the-exposed-piping? haha. Those are the comments you get when you hang out with students from sde. Especially when one of them simply adores Frank Gehry too. Boo. I didn't even know he existed until yesterday. To think I thought his name was spelt 'Gary' like Kim Gary instead of "Gehry" hahhaa. Still had fun though...

 

 

Okayy...

I think I better find out what preservatives do to us innocent consumers before we all die of poisoning...muaaahhahahah

Well, I don't know what to say about my apparent lack of updates here. Even my brother have asked me to blog more.

 

 

 

Sitting here listening to Coldplay.

 

Feels good. Better than studying for my test later at 230. I don't know what else to read up. Anything else would be practice already since its a statistics paper. I'm hoping that I'll be able to answer the questions and not make any careless mistakes. *grins* Its two hours more till my paper and I'm still sitting here typing. SO yeah, for the benefit of those who actually still bother to drop by, here's some stuff to read....

 

 

I realise that I don't have much of a life anymore (not that I had a lot to start with) but it's worse! I seldom go out with my friends whose company I miss so dearly and yet it's such a drag to pull myself out of hall. I feel so comfortable in my bed that even travelling to harbourfront seems far. Then again, I want to go vivocity. Anyone up for it? This weekend? I desperately need to get out of this campus without spending too much money. Hmmm...another draggy factor. There's always the guilt of not doing some work too since the weekends are pretty much the only time I get to sit down and study properly. Every other day is like, erm, slack? hehe. Or filled with disturbing people. Or (like this week) watching cartoons. I've never derived so much joy from cartoons in a long time. I recommend it! hahha. Super therapeutic. I recommend Foster's home for imaginary friends. Some are irritating but irritatingly cute!!! Especially cheeeessseeeeee. hahhahaha. See what I do in my time? *shakes head at self* hur hur

 

Cheat sheet? Check.

Lecture notes read? Check

Tutorials gone through? Check

 

 

Anything more? Oh blergh. There's always softabll training to go for. I can release any bad /negative emotions on the bat and ball. hur hur.

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I really should do something more productive than this.

 

Whee!!!

 

TGIO was fun!!!!! I was in the classic rock band and we played good!!!!! At least I think we did. hee hee. Our band's name was the Anyways, the good thing was that I had fun performing and I recieved messages from people saying we were good which made me all the more happier. I didn't mess up my riffs and I tried not to stone. hahaha. *grins*

 

So now its finally the holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boooooo.... My holidays are not holidays at all but merely given time to complete our many project assignments and homework assignments. Blergh, what is this?!! I want to sit back, relax and simply do nothing! Ahhh....

 

Now there's hot weather (disgusting....eewwww), a stuffed nose and dunno what else that's causing me to wake up so early in the morning. Especially since I slept around 2/3 plus in the morning.

 

 

 

 

Rest

since my last entry.

 

It's been long since I left home, since I last saw my family, since I last hugged my mom and told her I loved her. It's been long.

 

 

 

A month has flown by and so many things have happened. Orientation, Formal Dinner, Star to burst came and went and now its half way through IBG (inter block games). Soon it'll be TGIO (Thank God it's over) and then studying for finals. How fast time can fly when you don't realise it. I miss just doing nothing and enjoying every minute of my life with close friends, just talking and laughing and enjoying each other's company. It wasn't till this morning (it was 4 in the morning) that I realised how much I miss talking to Eunice and Mun Yin. When I mean talk, I don't mean the normal "hi...bye" kind of talking but the really talking about stuff and just telling each other how our days went, laughing at each other etc. I miss the times I could just lie in my bed and talk to Eunice, the times I could just pick up the phone and call Mun Yin to talk. Now we are caught up with the busy-ness of the NUS student's life and seldom get this chance to talktalk (Of course we still do talk la.....can't do without hahhaha). They're really good friends that I can count on in any situation and I know that they would always be watching my back. I thank God for such wonderful friends and I really cherish our friendship.

 

 

Hall life can roughly be summarised in one word. BUSY. You really have to learn how to manage your time and learn how to say NO to different things. You have to be wise and make sure you don't over stretch yourself or until the extent you have to sacrifice something like your studies. As Martin the block head (I still think the blockhead thing is funny...hehe) said, we are NUS students first, and then we are Kent Ridgeans. We all need to prioritise our time and make sure we still don't neglect our school stuff. In such a short time here, I believe I have learnt many things and relearnt many things. This is only the start, there's a lot more to learn and I hope that by the end, I would have matured and become a much better person.

 

 

I'm also thankful for KRCF. This is my first CF ever that I've joined and I find it very encouraging. Its nice to meet with brothers and sisters, sharing experiences, building each other up, encouraging each other and praying for each other. Its nice fellowship and I'm glad I didn't miss out on this.

 

 

Many more feelings and experiences to share...not all can be put into words.

 

 

 

 

 

 

That's all for now.

 

 

 

Cheers